We were saddened by the sudden loss of a longtime family friend. One of my mother's closest female friends died suddenly leaving us all in a state of shock. New babies, the loss of life, the sometimes arduous struggle to keep living, the heartwarming and comforting connections with family made this visit home more rich than most.
It also, in an underlying way, gave me further strength and resolve about a challenging decision I have made to change jobs. There is much that has been rewarding about being both a doctor and a teacher for the past 3 1/2 years. My involvement with training new physicians has made me feel an integral part of something much larger. I have learned so much and grown in many ways as a physician during my stint there. But, despite a unique job-share arrangement that has afforded me such opportunities as our Central America adventure, being a part of something larger has also demanded a larger share of my time away from my family than I prefer. After 11 years of doing OB, leaving my job has me walking away from doing deliveries among other things. While I could have the option of deliveries babies again someday, I may or may not. That has been one of the tougher things for me to let go of. It has been an internal struggle for me to find the right balance between Mom and Doctor, but shifting that balance more towards Mom feels very RIGHT at this present moment. I have 3 more weeks at my job and I'm rather excited. I have no doubt I'll keep my finger in the pot at the residency in some small capacity, but I am looking forward to a new experience. That "new experience" is only roughly defined at present and will fall more into place over the next several months. In short, I'll be filling in with several other practices in Anchorage and working roughly 2-3 days/week.
Russell and Natalie, too, will be embarking on new experiences come August. Russell, after his year leave of absence from the school district, was placed at a different school than the one he's been teaching in for the past 6 years. It was his first choice as he will be teaching only Physics and at the high school where he first taught 9 years ago. He will still be part time which was also our preference. He will be busy learning a new school and system, but I think it will be a fantastic position for him. Natalie will start kindergarten in the fall at our neighborhood school, Bear Valley Elementary. While Liam will undoubtedly miss being around his sister as much, I have no doubt our little social guy will have a great time at pre-school three days a week.
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